Dusks Life Experiences - The Unusual

                                          MY VOICES MY DAY YESTERDAY Also I noticed how extreme my voices were yesterday. Every house I walked by outside had some sort of voice as if the nieghbors were looking and shouting at me from their windows every single house I would get criticism. One saying I dont get why people like him. I got tired and decided to come back home I walked up stairs and all of a sudden a voice says to me hes sweet, I think in other words they were meaning I am not as much a macho person as they are meaning im not as tough so im soft and sweet or something but it didnt make sense. I didnt get what they wanted out of me how they wanted me to be to them or why they wouldnt stop paying attention and bothering me. I began to try to get stronger by doing some push up  exercises but didnt get how being strong would make any difference to t...

                                            What I experienced Today and Continue too! You may say you can only hear voices from what you can see from people, but with schizophrenia I have heard very real voices where no one was to be there but they sounded like they were there and very real.  Sometimes things can be more complicated then you think different then something as it is or it isnt. or as its real or its not real. or its there not there. The other day I heard this voice of a man when outside of my home and I instantly turned around on his last word and I saw a blur and heat I could feel from the energy of his self while voice that was talking to me.  At first I always thought that the voices were real people only just from the distance. But then I realized they werent people I could physically see when I was at home I had t...

  I have been in 3 different support groups lately where we meet up and just talk. I am part of Nami , A Bay Area Voice Group and a Facebook Group. I have learned alot from others peoples stories. Some peoples Stories are very interesting actually. People have spend hours on end or months just talking with their voices so much it seems to absorb them completly and make them sick. I personally never let my voices take me in if I hear them I try my best to ignore and distract myself because then I will become them and they will become a part of me which isnt always good because they are very negative. Mine happen Externally meaning outside of my head. People have alot of experiences with voices some of them been hearing for 20 years or to even 40. People have lots of experiences. Its hard when it comes to  the voices being mean because they can cause me to have episodes. Luckily I was not near any cops because People with mental disabilties are more than 15 times more likely to ...

 I also get dejavu every now and then sometimes I see people I remember it as if I dreamed it before. Theres a word for it when you have a dream that brings dejavu its called DejaReve meaning the feeling after something already happened like living a life that brings things that I already had done and feel familiar with for some reasons. People I had not met like at herric hospital I swear I saw them in my dream years ago. but what does this mean does this mean my life is sort of preordained does this mean people are being controled by something to show me? It sure is unusual. I remember spending time in the herric hospital. One thing to my surprise was I could hear a man in my room my roomate I moved in with that night I could hear the voice he was hearing. It was of a young person that would wisper. He responded to it but I decided not to respond to it because I knew if I did it would make it act more and come alive more but I was hearing what he was hearing and I then knew it wa...

  One day I wondered in my mind could I possibly pick up different thoughts from the voices like they do to me. One time I just let my head wait and I concentrated on doing talk in my head but instead let something come to let something else talk in my head. All of a sudden new words I would not been able to think of I was saying newly in my head where I had no idea where it was coming from. Here it goes I can feel it right now '' Impartial awareness'' Intracated Difference my mind just told myself. Implasauble Action my mind just told myself again. I have never herd these words but they come to me like a unknown dream talking to me. Here it goes again let me try to get it here as I write. "Faction of Dissatory ways " I have no idea what that means but it just came in my head. " Interconnected Ways "  my mind says. " Portable Inquiry ".  Masterful Achievement,  Commander Life,  Interwoven Ideas,  Discreet Past ,  Partake Minutes Been Made